Most Hassle Day

JD, Tel, Dianne, Adrian

When can you say that she's a friend for a lifetime? 

This is not the picture that I've expected to have on this day. This is not the scene that I wanted on the same day. 

I wanted her with us. Even with her boy friend. No matter how awkward it may be.

I can't force her to understand if she doesn’t want to.

All this time, I thought we’re in good terms.

I thought that distance is not a problem. I always convince myself that among my friends, whether they’re real or not to me, it doesn’t matter as long as I have the truest friends I’ve known. But now, seems like I lost one.

I don’t know if I’m just over reacting but I felt so much pain. Incomparable pain that I’d rather not think about ‘coz when I do, I always asks myself if it’s really my fault, our fault or it just happened that we don’t have the time to fix things.

But this day is suppose to be the day to fix things and figure it out.

But where is she? Yeah, she can’t go with us. I understand that she can’t break the rules but what I don’t understand is; do we matter to her? All the effort, all the sacrifices? It’s just, so depressing. Her reaction. Nothing. Nothing at all. Even a text. Even a thank you. None.

How a long story ends? I don’t know if I’ve already started the story with this, but I don’t think this will end. I don’t want it to end.

I have flaws. I have insufficiencies. But I will never let a friendship turns into something she let our friendship be. Not most especially through another person who doesn’t know about our friendship. About me. Not a single thing about me.