Almost there..

I haven’t got the chance again to take pictures from yesterday’s moments. Fail. But it goes this way....

Mama and I planned my 2 days 2 nights stay in our new renovated house just to see it personally, and to be with them of course in spite of my bad terms with papa. Actually, I don’t wanna be with them with just the four of us thinking that it is awkward for papa and I so I suggested if naynay, my titas and cousins can come too on weekends. And the plan went well. Friday night, Jong drove me home. Haha. As if, he has a car? =)) After watching HP DH part 2, he went along with me to the meeting place. I shouldn’t be seen actually by whoever knows me so Mama picked me up at Mcdonald’s Elvinda around 8 in the evening.

Good news is, naynay and everyone else arrived just an hour after I arrived so I don’t have to worry about Papa. I mean, if I get to see him, I don’t know whether to kiss him, to start crying or just talk to him normally. Good thing, they’ve arrived earlier before Papa does. The first night was fun and just normal. I’m about to sleep when he arrived so, no problem at all.

Second day, they’re all busy fixing the some left over works for the house such as a few more lights, curtain hangers, mirrors, etc. Those are for the boys (Tito Bodz, Tatay and Pa), while the girls clean the house little by little. I have nothing to do but to fix my own things in my room and throw unnecessary things. I forgot to take pictures of how many clothes I have from the beginning of my general cleaning until it goes into half. Gave almost everything to my cousins since they’re as slim as I am before. Huhuh. L

During lunch time, my tito was like teasing me.. “La, alam mo ba kanina nung namamalengke kami, sabi sakin ni papa mo, oh, bilhan mo si kristel ng saging... Naks! Concern pa din ang papa niya..” I don’t know if that’s for real but it made me happy for a while. The day ends without any single word from Papa, as I’ve expected yet you can never imagine how happy I am being with them that time.

Sunday.

My last few hours are surprises for me. The original plan is to meet Jong somewhere in Pacita for the obvious reason that Papa doesn’t want to see him yet. That was clear to him. I thought Kuya Jason will be the one to come with him and fetch me up but Mama (Jong's) texted me saying, “Susunduin ka daw namin..” I panicked right away! I told her, “Hala, nakakahiya po wag na lang po si Jong na lang..” But she insisted it’s okay. I thought it will be a shame if I won’t even bother to invite them to come straight in our house. So I told her to have lunch with us na lang which is out of the plan. I called Jong telling him, why did he ask his parents to come with him so I felt like I don’t have a choice kasi naman ang pangit na nandun na sila malapit samen, tapos sa Pacita lang magkikita.

When I told Mama that they’re coming, her reactions were clear to me that she doesn’t want to. First of all, Inay and the others will leave right after breakfast. It was 7:30 in the morning I think when I told her. Then she asked Papa if it’s okay. His statement was, “Aalis na lang ako kung pupunta sila.” I started crying. I just don’t know how am I gonna face Jong’s parents with only me and Mama in the house and nothing prepared for them. I begged Tatay to stay until lunch. He, then, talked to Papa and convinces him not to leave. After a few, Papa entered the house with a fierce mood asking me, “Ano ba? Ano ba ang plano mo?” I was shocked that he really did talk to me. I was crying then. Mama, too.

Tel: “Wag na lang po Pa, sa Pacita ko na lang sila kikitain.”

Pa:  “Akala ko ba gabi ka pa magpapasundo, at sa Pacita nga lang ang planong susunduin ka? Alam mo naman na wala pang nakakaalam dito diba?”

Mama: “Ba’t kasi hindi pa tanggapin eh. Nandyan na nga eh. Wala naman na tayong magagawa eh. Sabihin naman ng parents ni John Donn eh wala man lang tayong pakialam sa anak naten. At paano kung lalo silang mawalan ng gana dahil dyan at bigla na lang ibalik dito sa Kristel at hindi nga panagutan?”

Pa: “Ne, anong sinasabi mong walang pakialam? Magkaiba ang walang pakialam sa hindi pa matanggap. Hindi ko pa matanggap dahil malaki ang pakialam ko. Anak ko yan eh. Mahal na mahal ko yang anak ko kaya ako nagkakaganito kaya dapat intindihin niyo kung bakit ganito pa ako.” His voice was like in pain. Just about to cry.

I’ve burst into tears. More more more tears. I’ve never realized that after all, Papa still loves me just the same. I can feel it.

Mama: “Edi pasensya, nagkamali ako ng word. Ang ibig sabihin ko nga lang ay nandyan na sila eh, papunta na. Makiharap man lang tayo sa kanila ng maayos hindi yung aalis ka pa.”

PAUSE.

Pa: “Sige, okay na ako. (Facing me) Papuntahin mo na sila. Padiretsohin mo na dito.”

Tel:  “Hindi po, sinabi ko na kay JD na sa Pacita na lang. Okay lang naman po. Kasi kanina, okay naman po ang plano na sa Pacita naman na talaga. Akala ko kasi kuya niya lang ang susundo, edi okay lang na hindi na nga po pupunta dito. Kaso, nagtext nga po bigla yung mama ni JD na sila ang susundo. Sa akin lang naman nga po, eh patuluyin man lang po dito, tutal eh nandito na. Pero Pa, alam naman nila ang sitwasyon. Maiintindihan naman nila kung hindi niyo pa kaya kasi sinabi ko naman sa kanila na hindi niyo pa nga po tanggap at wala pang nakakaalam dito.”

Sobrang iyak ko na, at hindi ko maituwid ang pagsasalita ko. Shet.

Pa: (Lumapit sa ‘kin at hinimas ang likod ko) “Oh sya, tama na. Tama na ang pagi-yak."

I hugged him so tight when he approached me and began to cry harder.

Tel: “Sorry po, Papa...” =(((

Pa: “Tama na, tama na.. Sige na.. Okay na. Papuntahin mo na dito. Wag ka na umiyak. (Looking to Mama he said) Ikuha mo nga ng tubig ito.."

Mama: "Oh, tubig. Maligo ka na.. Sabihin mong dito na sila dumirecho."

I AM SO RELIEVED.. Not only because the plan went well but because Papa started to accept me once again. Huhuhu. I’m so blessed, really.

They arrived at around 10:30. Everything went well. Kwentuhan. Papa told them the story and how he’s coping up about me. I’m not paying attention to what they are talking about thinking that it might be awkward for Papa na nakikinig ako while he’s telling them his feelings towards me.

We ate lunch together. Jong’s parents, he himself, my parents and me. Lunch was overwhelming because they liked the food that my Ninang prepared for them.

We left around 1 and before leaving, Papa handed me money and I hugged him again so tight saying, “Thank you po, Papa. I love you...” He hugged back and told me, “Sige na. Sige na.” His tone was like, he will burst into tears any moment. It’s heart breaking but heart warming at the same time.

Okay na kami, alam ko. Konti na lang ang mapapatawad na din ako ng Papa ko. Konti na lang din at makakabawi din ako sa lahat, kami ni Jong.. We’re almost there..