My past Ading.

Why do I always give letters? He's surely tired of reading the same thoughts for him. The same words that I even tell him in person. So why write it?

I have this nothing-to-do-day with him. He's just playing computer games and I'm tired browsing so I decided to fix  his things and throw unnecessary stuff. I ended up reading and reading his letters to me and mine to him. It's nakakatuwa kasi even from the beginning of our college, even we're not yet officially "ON", we're like so sweet and we're dating! Gah. I'm so depress that there are just a few memories I have in mind together with Ading. I can't remember everything, since I'm not into him since then. He's my friend, I know. I open up everything to him, from anton, to cyrus, to my family and my friends (ryan, dianne, abi). He knows it all. He's really into listening not into making kwento so I'm glad. Hahah. Napakadaldal ko kasi and he's always there just to listen. 

When I'm reading again all his letters and mine, it's just funny how we end up like this. Kasi, we're like kids pa nung first year and super sweet namin sa isa't isa kahit hindi kami. He will sometimes give me letter in between classes just to say "Aneng ko, smile ka naman jan!" He's always telling me na ang sungit sungit ko daw sa klase, napakaseryoso ko daw lalo na pag Math. And when I read those letters, I can't even remember that I'm noticing him looking at me during classes. Siguro nga, busy ako sa pagaaral at seryoso masyado. He's not even one of my circle of friends nun. It's just me and him but we have different group. 

I've read also our "i love you" letters to think na he has a girlfriend that time I  guess. Aha! I remembered, just now. He has this letter for me, actually, he's making kwento about himself in letters naman. He talked about all the girls that he had. HMP! Kala mo kay gwapo, sabi ko. Kasi ba naman, sa dami!!

I don't know. Sobrang saya ko pag magkakwentuhan kami but never in my mind I've thought that I'll be happier, happiest, when this time came that we're actually couple :) I even told him, siguro kung nagkagusto na agad ako sa kanya dati pa nung nagkagusto siya saken nugn first year, siguro, konti lang ang pagkakamali ko sa buhay. No cyrus, no JT, no Anaya, no Jayjay, no Jep, no Chua. Basta. Yung mga boys na naging jowa ko o nakalandian ko. Wala siguro yun lahat at siguro walang gaanong pagkakamali sa lovelife ko. And he'll just say, "ok lang yun. di mo naman talaga kasi ako napapansin dati" with drama effect. And I'll just laugh and kiss him telling him na "Bakit? Tayo naman na ah, and I am so contented than ever." Hahah. 

I'm so fond of Jong. I'm also fond of thinking those memories. Few memories that I have nung hindi pa kami. Kasi it feels like ang ganda ng story namin. Na kami din pala sa huli, naging choosy pa kasi ako! Hahah.

I can remember how he first talked to me. If my memories are correct, the first thing he asked me is, if I already have a boyfriend. Haha. Silly. Obvious na may gusto na saken :))

From then on, I opened up about Anton. About everything. When I'm tired with the girls (Joy and Tin), I approach him and we're like having our own world :D He  bought something for Von pa nga dati. Yung hot wheels? Tapos, he buys fries and flurry for me pag naglalambing sya. Pati cotton candy. Tapos, nagkukwentuhan kami sa dorm dati, I remember the scene very well. Na habang nagkukwentuhan kami, naiisip ko, nakakahiya kasi kaming dalawa lang sa dorm. Naiilang ako. HAHA! Conservative pa ko nun! Shet. Hahahah.

And now, whenever I remember those things, I started kissing him and loving him more and more. Those memories are treasure. It will never fade. And I know, when everything fall apart, it's my only way back to him. And I know, everything will be okay once again :)