Pre-Natal Chuchu

Andami ko pala hindi alam sa pagiging buntis o pagiging nanay.

I’ve felt so awkward google-ing everything about pregnant women, what are the dos and don’ts, what to expect, what the changes are and what’s the best for the baby. Then I’ve realized, I’m not really ready for this. I don’t even know yet how to be conscious with my health for the sake of my baby. I’ve realized that there’s really a lot more to learn and that pregnancy is really something, not just to be taken for granted. I mean, for all the first time moms, no one can ever be wise enough to know everything about every aspect of getting pregnant not unless you’re a doctor, an OB GYNE.

Fortunately, I’m one of the luckiest pregnant in the world. Ha-ha. Morning sickness? I haven’t experienced so much of that. I don’t even feel that there are changes within me. Paglilihi? I’m not sure either. Di ko alam kung naglihi ba ko pero based on everyone was saying, how weird you can be habang naglilihi ka, I think, I didn’t experience that too. Well, they said I’m just lucky to have this “wala lang pagbubuntis” unlike others who have gone through so much during their pregnancy. Weird foods, weird smell, weird likes and dislikes, weird diet. Everything is weird when you’re pregnant, but not like me. Nothing but normal. J I didn’t suffer so much as well as Jong. He’s indeed lucky too for not suffering the same thing like the other pregnant does. His cousin, Renior, told me that. “Ang swerte ni Jong,di ka nahihirapan magbuntis. Nung si Cheann, buntis, grabe ang hirap ko dun. Basta. Lahat siyempre sa akin ang hiling. Tapos lahat kailangan kong sundin. Buti pa si Jong.” But at the back of my mind, sayang, sana pinahirapan ko si Jong. Hahah. *Evil Laugh*

But honestly, I don’t know if I’m  gonna celebrate my being not-so-sensitive pregnancy because I’m also thinking that I want to experience those things. Grabe. Di man lang ako naglihi? Yun ang weird! What would I say to my baby if she’s gonna ask me that thing. Na wala akong pinaglihihan? Parang abnormal naman yun :/ Of course, I just want to feel those things even a bit without suffering so much. Haha. I’m not really special, aren’t I? Even in these times, I can’t receive full special treatment just like other pregnant. I feel like, I’m just trying to adjust with my weight of getting bigger. Pero, hindi talaga kasi ako sensitive magbuntis! Walang bawal, lahat kasi okay lang ako. Nakakapagbadminton pa nga ako at this time e. I’m taking care of a 2 year old kid regardless of whether he’s too heavy na for me, or he’s keeping me stress and tired. Ba’t ganon? I want to feel special and not just normal. Whenever they’re asking me, aren’t you having a hard time? Oh, I wish I am. Haha.

The hardest thing for me to deal with I guess, is my bathroom trouble. I thought I already have this UTI (which I had really just for 2 weeks of my pregnancy) for frequently urination. It’s just unbelievable how I urinate even I just came out from the toilet. And even I’m still sitting on it, I can count for 5-10 seconds and there, urine keep on coming. Hahah.

That’s one of the changes at least. Hahah. Also, I have this super lower back pain all the time! I know I’m not a person of exercise thing and during the first months, I’m thinking of maybe I just really have to do some exercise daily since we don’t have PE in school for 3^rd and 4^th years. My lower back hurts badly each day and I’m beginning to worry, even tell my dad to take me at the hospital and make check up or x-ray. Good thing, I didn’t. My baby would be gone by now if I happened to take that x-ray without knowing that I really am pregnant.

--- putol siya actually :P tinamad na ituloy.. nawala ang ideas. -_-