Greatest Dream.

I badly want this interior design with my future room :D Only, the color of the cabinets and stuffs would be Purple.. (Grr. Maliit pala yung na-edit ko.)

I have this crazy desire of having my own bedroom and with my personal interior design on it. I’ve begun dreaming this since Von started to have his own bed and we have to share bedrooms since we only have two small rooms. Is it nonsense to desire something like this? Haha. It’s cute though when I’ve found out that even Jong has the same “greatest dream” (as we call it) of having his own room.

Funny how big their house is for all of them yet he’s the only one who doesn’t have his own room. He has to share with his sister or his brother sometimes. Ganun ba talaga pag bunso? Lahat ng tira lang. Lahat ng galing sa mas matanda, yun ang sa kanya. I can’t help myself but to feel sorry for him whenever he can’t have something he wants because his parents won’t let him have it, unlike his brothers and sisters that already have their own salaries and can buy anything they want.

We promised, we’ll gonna have our own rooms someday! So sorry Jong, mauuna ako :D We’ve even thought of having separate rooms when we get married just to satisfy that desire. Haha. It doesn’t matter whether we sleep there or not as long as we have each other’s own room. We’re gonna sleep together in one room, anyway. We just have to choose which room, mine or his =))

Max's and Movie

How I wish, I have limitless time with friends. I’ve been lost since I always have Saturday classes because that’s the time that they see each other or bond together. And yes, I’m so inggit. But no matter how long I can’t be with these people, it’s like riding a bicycle that you can never forget 

when you started learning it.

This movie was proposed by Roy, and I liked it. Wish I can have that pill for my entire no-solution-problems thing.

Red Riding Hood

Wala kasi kaming pictures :D

As far as I can remember, this is the last movie that Jong and I 

have watched together so far. So sad we don’t have any more the luxury of time 

to watch all the movies that we want. I don’t know, maybe 

I’ve changed in terms of money matters. I feel like it’s just a waste to sit beside 

him inside the movie house and watch a single screening movie 

(and we barely talk of course we have to understand the movie :D) 

worth 500+ pesos with popcorns and drinks, 

where we can download the movie, watch it at home, anytime we want, 

chicha’s unlimited and we can share thoughts, pause the movie or fast forward it. 

Mas gusto ko ‘yun. Yung walang gastos pero mas nakakapagbonding kami. 

I don’t know. I’ve been so tired making gala and wasting money for 

the same kind of foods. Siguro, the only time that I want 

to throw money for is during our monthsaries and annivs. 

Doon siguro hindi ako manghihinayang kahit ilang libo ang gastos. 

It’s worth it naman kasi when we have enough money on our monthsary, 

we’re trying to eat somewhere that we’ve never been. Mga ganung bagay. 

Pero yung every week, every other day na lang, gala. It’s too tiring na for me. 

Gusto ko na lang, sa bahay lang kami. Or tambay lang kami.

 Boring ba yun? I don’t think so. 

I don’t get bored when I’m with him, with all honesty. 

That’s how simple I want to live life, with him.

Grad Thingy

I've been looking for my graduation attire. Hahah. Actually, I haven't check out so many places and I just find it hard to decide. Kasi I don't wanna get overdressed on that day so I don't wanna choose those too daring but I don't like to jologs :)) I've tried 4 dresses so far. I always want simple, but elegant.

btw, please don't  mind my look, my accessories and the complexion. Haha. Do I look so fat naaa? Hahaha. Just check out the dress :)) My bet is the second picture, the silver one. Gonna buy any of those on Saturday if I didn't happen to find anything new on weekends.

Good and Bad News

This is gonna be short and quick. Not in the mood always to blog something.


Good news is, I've found out that I have big chances of marching this April 15 with distinction :)
At least, they'll be proud of me even for the shortest time before I tell them what my situation is. 
Anyway, our Thesis is sooo done with an overwhelming comments from the panels. OJT will be my next problem but as far as the school is concerned, it should be good. I should pass the technical report by Monday or Tuesday then I'm ready for the interview. The only problem is my professor if he'll accept my report. It will a late submission actually, but I'm counting on my charms with that.


I'm not excited for the graduation! I'm excited to rest from studying. :))

do i have to cry?

until now, i still don't want it. 
i don't want this to go on.
but i'm losing the chances that i can eliminate it.
i'm losing the hope that i can manage to get rid of it.


i'm sorry.


i don't hate it.
but i can't love it too.
i really don't know what am i suppose to feel for it.
i don't wanna feel it.
i'm not strong enough to face it.


if only everyone knows what i feel.
though i don't admit it to myself and to others.
i can't take it off of my mind.
everything that i see, i can see it too.
everything that i can think of is all about it.
i'm so stupid not to take care of it.
but i just can't accept it.
i don't want to accept it.


oh Lord, please. tell me this isn't real.
you know i'm weak.
you know i'll easily surrender.
you know even i have ading, i have his cousins, his family, my friends,
i still feel that i'm alone.
because no one can carry this thing but me.
only me.
and no one will ever understand that.
no one can help me.
no one will be able to help me.


i miss everything about me.
cos from that day on, i lost myself at once.
i lost everything about my happiness of being myself.
i feel like i'm in a total wreck.
i feel like, i don't wanna do anything anymore.
haha. what happened with, i will do my best this time?
what happened when i said to him that i'll be strong for him?
what happened when i said to him that i'll be a better me.
move to trash again?
yes, i'm emotional again. haha.

Will be a lot more.

Countdown to 2011 has been one of the best. Every year is getting better. More pakulos from us. We’ve had more time with sing along, eating, bonding, party and pictures. Fireworks and other firecrackers are not numerous than the previous years but that doesn’t mean we haven’t enjoy the eve. Aside from we chose it to be simple, we want it to be safe.

For the sake of blogging something on the first days of January. Haha. I’ll be busy on my OJT soon and I bet I won’t have time for this. But I'm sure, there'll be a lot more! We’ll be doing our scrap book too :D He promised. He’ll help me. Hahaha. In fairness. First time. From my past boyfriends, he’s the only one who offered to help for some fetish things like this :P

Excited for this one :)