Miyerkules, Oktubre 27, 2010

Oh no!

I don't wanna mess up :( TEL MUST WRITE! But I'm out of words, really. I have a lot of things to blog yet I can't find the urge to compose anything out of this head. Tsk!

Well.. I'm stuck into listing fast foods, restaurants and places that I wanted to go to, with you. We've promised na iisa-isahin natin sila! It doesn't matter when. Basta makakainan o mapupuntahan natin sila, SOON <3 Kahit siyempre yung iba nakainan at napuntahan na naten :P

PIZZA CORNER
California Kitchen Pizza (Shangri-La Mall 2/F)   --- Novermer 22, 2010 (TRINOMA)
Brooklyn Pizza (Ortigas Center)
Amici (SM North Edsa Annex)
SBARRO (Market! Market!)
Carlo's Pizza (Metrowalk, Pasig)
Don Henrico's (Mall Of Asia)
Pizza Hut Bistro (Eastwood)
Sandy's Pizza (Rockwell)
Joey Pepperoni Pizzeria (SM Southmall)
Suggestions please? Baka may nakalimutan :D


BURGER-AN atbp. 
Army Navy Burger + Burrito (Glorietta 5 2/F)
T.G.I Friday's (Ayala Town Center)
Brother's Burger (Nuvali)
Classic Savory (Festival Mall) for the sake na makakaen dun na kasama ka :))


SWIMMING-AN
Puerto Princesa, Palawan
Puerto Galera, Mindoro
Boracay
CAMSUR Watersports Complex
Villa Escudero Plantations and Resort, Quezon
La Virginia Hotel and Resort, Batangas
Punta Fuego, Nasugbu Batangas
Laiya White Cove Beach, Batangas


Yesss! Now, I'm sleepy :D I'll think of the others some other time :)

Linggo, Oktubre 17, 2010

Grade Conscious

Wednesday is drawing near. I'm both thinking of the hell possibilities,but hoping for a miracle just to make this sign. Please, good Father. I need this. Please. I-balato mo na, please

It wasn't easy to face you, empty handed. I don't have any excuse letter to show you why I'm this lazy as ever. But I will make a change after this. Oh, please believe me. I will pass, right? I have faith in you. I don't want to wait another academic year just to march at that auditorium for my graduation. They can't wait that long. 

Please. Please. I won't give up. I will believe in myself na, just give this one to me. Please, Bro. I will do my best din, PROMISE.

Biyernes, Oktubre 15, 2010

Feels like Perfect.

  The happiest time in my life, is when I'm with you. I know it's unfair but you've cursed me with your love. I can't escape from your kisses. I can't find a way not to make you my world. You're the easiest person to love. You're the most appreciative guy I've known. You know what? I don't believe that a healthy relationship should have fights some time, because when we're together, fights are like eating candies... It won't be long; not more than five minutes. We don't need pride in our relationship. We don't care if it's not normal. We don't have to experience too much fights just to say we're strong. We are always strong, I know that. And if ever there will come a situation that we're in tough times, I will never think of you leaving me. That's how I trust you. That's how I believe in you because whoever made a mistake between us, both of us will apologize, both of us will surrender the fight, both of us will give way :) Alam mu yun, lagi tayong okay? Nakakainis diba. Hahaha. 

          
                     Yes. I know we've been only for a year. A year without having any third party issue, a year without any thinking of breaking up. A year without me, sleeping in tears, without hurting myself, without thinking of too much pain, without wanting to cry all night long. And a year without having fights that lasted longer than 21 hours? (21 is just the number I've automatically thought.)  And to think, Ading, this is not what we have expected. We can't still get enough with each other. We can't still believe that we're together. Haha. Tama na, ang cheesy na. But really, thank you so much hon kasi lahat ng time na meron ka, kaya mong ibigay para saken. Lahat ng gusto ko, kaya mong gawin mapa-saya lang ako. You've been a good friend, good boy friend, good ninong (to Javien ;p), good partner, good classmate, thesismate, husband, everything I want. You've been so good that I won't ever think of cheating on you, making fool of you and finding another one better than you. Ewan ko ba, napaka-bait mo. At napaka-righteous mo. You always think of what is right. I don't know what's the term but you're so righteous talaga :)) I know there are a lot out there better than you, literally. But I'm sure, no one in this world will be better than the way you take care of me. You treat me like your queen. You treat me like your world. I will never let you down. I promise. 

                  I want you to be mine. Always mine. All the time. All this lifetime. But I want to make everything right. I still want you to have something for yourself.I just don't want to be like any other teen agers. We're mature enough, right? We don't fight and break-up, and be together again, and break-up again. We don't fight and hurt each other physically. We don't fight and yell words that will hurt each other. You respect yourself, and you respect me so much. That's what I've learned from you. We don't need to make our fights longer. We don't need to live the hard way, we just live the way we know we'll both be happy. And that is with each other. <3  Ohaaa :) Thank you for this day (October 14,2010).  Thank you, Yellow Cab. :D I love you so much, beb :) 

Huwebes, Oktubre 14, 2010

Billionnaire

I can't make a good one this late at night. I promise to make you smile tomorrow, love :)
Thank you for always making my dreams, real.
I'm already a billionnaire having you. I love you, Ading.



Linggo, Oktubre 10, 2010

Now I'm worried :|



I love you, nay at tatay <3


"Wala naman nakapag-present eh. Baka mapagbigyan pa kami. Kung hindi, sama-samang ulit na lang." (Nagpatawa pa ko sa isip ko.)

I don't think about what subjects I am going to fail this time. I don't think either if what will happen if I'll fail one.
I don't know if this is some kind of a defense mechanism or what? Because the more I think about grades, the more I become frustrated. Or maybe, this is some kind of a joke to me, thinking that I've passed all my subjects for my whole life and maybe I can pass this one too.

But seriously, I'm beginning to think of the consequences of what will happen if we're gonna fail this one. 
There are two possibilities, either INC. or 5 (not this one,please).
And two outcomes. Because I haven't experienced yet to fail any subject, I'm not sure if:
One, we'll be given a chance to complete our itprj413 during the sem break. Or two, we're going to be dumped under our nose and repeat the subject. Not on the next semester, but the next school year. And if we're going to take that next school year, the itprj423 can only be taken the second semester of the next school year.

Can you imagine? Ohmygah! I forgot. Prerequisites. :|

Well for me, I can easily accept it. That's part of our lives. That's part of learning. That's part of growing up. But not today...

Staring through their eyes, I got worried. What if, they can't wait for my graduation if it wasn't on April then? What if, they're just really waiting for this year to end? What if, they died before my grad? I hate thinking about those people who believes in me! I hate thinking that I will be a big disappointment for them. I’m the eldest child, the eldest granddaughter. I should be a role model. But how? In this scenario. How will I be?


.tel.101010.

Sabado, Oktubre 9, 2010

Consistency.

I don't know if you can forgive me for staying up this late but I really can't find a way to sleep.


I miss you, love :) I really do. Whenever I repeat reading again all my journals before, I began to smile, a big one.. Why? It's funny. Simply funny. That I've never imagined myself being that emotional back then. Unlike now, with you? I don't have to be that way again. You never let me cry. You never have the guts to cheat on me. You don't have the strength to hurt me. 


You are so consistent on loving me. There's no minute that you haven't made me happy. I really believe that I deserve someone like you. After all my pain in the past, after all your misery from different girls, we really deserve each other. We need to be happy. We need to be together. Two less lonely people in the world. :)) 


I don't know if I will tell that I'm still up by this time. Maybe I won't. But you'll see. :) You'll see this blog and hopefully (praying), that you will smile instead of getting kooky :D please? And by the way, papa wants me to pick him up at i-don't-know-where wake. I think, I can just wait a little more time. Kawawa naman si Papa diba, babe? :) I hope you're having good dreams about me, though you barely have dreams in your sleep. :P

It is him, Ading.

he wakes up early to go with her.

he spends money for the foods she likes.

he chooses this instead of that because she wants it.

he makes her laugh by doing gestures she loves.

he makes her feel that she's special

he makes her feel that she's the one.

he follows when she walks out.

he pampers her to make her comfortable.

he buys load to call her. 

he respects everything about her.

he kisses her hand, her cheek and lips with respect.

he gives everything that he can just for her to be happy.

he embraces her with love.

he looks at her like he's adoring her. 

he touches her hair and smells it as if it has a delicate scent.

he thinks of her 24/7.

he treasures the things she gave him.

he escorts her home when needed. 

he never let her feel that she's alone :)

he depends on the decisions she makes.

he treats her like a queen.

he acts like a real husband to her.

he dances when she say so. 

he don't mind whoever is around when she's beside him.  

he don't reply nor read unimportant messages when he's with her.

he makes her the best inspiration.

he follows her advices.

he won't if she don't want him to. 

he welcomes her at home like it's her first time. 

he combs her hair on bad hair days. 

he wipes the sweat outta her when it's hot. 

he let her wear his coat when it's cold. 

he tells her she's beautiful even she looks so stressed ;p

he calms her down when she's furious.

he makes her remember that he loves her so much.



HE LOVES HER.
HE COMPLETES HER.
HE LIVES FOR HER.


i know he'll do everything for me to stay always.
i know i'm the one for him, he knows that too :) 
i know he's indeed in love with me and i will never waste it.
i'll grow old with him, cherish him forever and love him for the rest of the days..

dam sarap naman non.. halavet!
teLdreams my love. 




10-3-09

Oh, I just remembered

[not in order] so many things running in my head. blurrr..


Oh, I just remembered when I promised 
someone that we'll be "us" after I graduate in high school.

Oh, I just remembered how I cried to my ex's shoulder when we're about to split.

Oh, I just remembered when I had this infatuation with a "tambay" :)) 

Oh, I just remembered when I fantasized being the girl friend of that man. 

Oh, I just remembered when I promised not to fall in love with him.

Oh, I just remembered getting too deep with my chat mate

Oh, I just remembered when I sneaked out of the apartment to go with him.

Oh, I just remembered being so suicidal for an emoink and him.

Oh, I just remembered when I knelt in front of him begging him to keep me.

Oh, I just remembered when I promised this guy that we'll wait for each other.

Oh, I just remembered when my girl best friends and I promised a 10 rules about friendship :))

Oh, I just remembered when besh and I watched shaolin soccer on tv. start of everything.

Oh, I just remembered when bes and I are playing on the bridge. and when we watched Madagascar 2. so different scenes yet both treasured.

Oh, I just remembered dancing with someone without music and going out with him - UBE.

Oh, I just remembered how someone made me so special in my everyday existence. I wonder how hecarry out about it.

Oh, I just remembered sitting with her inside the bus during field trip XD

Oh, I just remembered talking and talking and talking with this gurl about love and stuffs.

Oh, I just remembered when I cried because the kismet isn't true.

Oh, I just remembered looking for a lad inside the mall hoping he's doing the same thing that very moment.

Oh, I just remembered telling this lass how painful it was. for the first time.

Oh, I just remembered holding his hand in front of people that we don't even know.

Oh, I just remembered making that scrapbook with my foster "asawa" in our house XD

Oh, I just remembered riding the motorcycle and eating isaw with that baby boy =))

Oh, I just remembered "kuya", who impressed me with his basketball skills.

Oh, I just remembered joining a clan and having her as my "sish"

Oh, I just remembered walking with a motherly classmate and friend inside the whole campus after exams.

Oh, I just remembered reporting to the officer with my "buddy"

Oh, I just remembered this friend waiting for me just to chat with me inside the bus from Boni to Pacita. 

Oh, I just remembered going to MOA with the bubbly boy.

Oh, I just remembered talking with a nice nice on the telephone and playing with him about the commercials on tv. lol.


Oh, I just remembered her being my first acquaintance in elem.

And oohhh, I just remembered sooo many things like when I cried about the dyosa's surprise interview with me and my ex. blahahaha.

and oohh.. I'm sorry if someone was not remembered. xp


*iba-iba silang lahat [except sa 2 tao XD]. they're all special or have been special to me. OH, I JUST REMEMBERED ;p i wish i have a Pensieve. :))

goodnight to me. hahaha. can't sleep!!!






6-07-09

My Brother's Pain

May 9, 2009 
12:02am 


It's still bleeding. I don't know if it is normal, I don't know when it will end, I don't know what I can do. I've never imagined seeing him this way. I've never thought that he'll be suffering such pain. It seems like I'm not worried about him but hell yeah, I am so bothered. 

I'm still awake. I don't want to sleep. I just want to observe and watch out for him. I get so weak every time I'm thinking about his condition. I can't take it when he's complaining about the hurt but I want to be right beside him all the time. How I wish I can take all the pain. He's not used to this. He's too young to face this, yet so brave to show us that he's not crying at all.   

They're all sleeping; resting. It's been a tough day for all of us. I know my father is trying to be strong for him. I know it upsets a father whenever he sees his son in a condition that there's nothing to do but to undergo such process.

The mother's heart suffers seeing her son so vulnerable and exhausted, lying on a bed with tubes and all. I saw her crying. I know her whole system is still in grip. The feeling was inexplicable. It feels like when I'm about to start explaining it, tears will fall involuntarily.

This is not a dream though I hope it is.

This is so real and I wish to end it now.  
He can get through this, I know. Everything will be alright. 
It is not a serious problem compared to others' problem but it is tough and painful for him.