My 18th. I miss it :)

A night to remember. I did take shine at my 18.

            A month and a half of preparation is equal to a night of fulfillment and appreciation.

From the look of my hair to the color of my toe nails' polish.

From the table arrangements to the foods that we're going to eat.

From the closest relatives to those who I can't even recognize.

The lights, smoke, bubbles, confettis... Everything that surrounds me that night.

As I walk through the red carpet, I'm thinking of these things: 'How do I look? Is everyone present tonight? Where are they? Am I ready for the event?

What  should I do? What will happen tonight?'

I don't know what should I feel. Excitement? Nervous? Pressured?

hmmm.. I'm not really sure.

I'm in a world where foolishness reigns.

But I can't fool myself by denying my high spirited emotions.

I'm not wearing a mask or anything that can conceal who I really am.

I don't want anyone to think  that I'm pretending to be someone who I am not.

But thinking all these....

I can feel that I'm just having a dream..

I'm just a character in a fiction story that will never be real..

Do I really need to have this? Am I really deserving for this?

I hope so.. For by the moment I stood in front of everyone, and saw them smiling at me... I am then sure, I'm simply feeling pleased and happy.

It was a one time big time event in my life.

As of now, the most memorable one.

The wholeevent was running in my mind so clear and comprehensible.

I never experienced such thing that I am the center of attention of a big event.

Well, yeah. I had a celebration before.

But not  kind of celebration where there are 180 guests more or less,

a venue like that, a gown as glamourous as

that, elegant designs for the venue, and a program as pecualiar as that.

I don't know how to describe and and tell everything that happened that night. Honestly, I feel lazy about sharing it. ;p Super haba!

Even it's just 4 hours or so, it's incredibly long.

I want tomake it short by these simple phrases.

• The most important person/s in my life was there.
• I've got so many surprises. (my ninong, a song, an avp presentation,candles,gifts,all)
• Everyone enjoyed the party. (i guess?)
• I met him finally. again.
• It's a dream came true. 

It's simple and uncomlicated to think. But honestly, that's all it matters to me.

(September 13, 2008)