My Brother's Pain

May 9, 2009 
12:02am 


It's still bleeding. I don't know if it is normal, I don't know when it will end, I don't know what I can do. I've never imagined seeing him this way. I've never thought that he'll be suffering such pain. It seems like I'm not worried about him but hell yeah, I am so bothered. 

I'm still awake. I don't want to sleep. I just want to observe and watch out for him. I get so weak every time I'm thinking about his condition. I can't take it when he's complaining about the hurt but I want to be right beside him all the time. How I wish I can take all the pain. He's not used to this. He's too young to face this, yet so brave to show us that he's not crying at all.   

They're all sleeping; resting. It's been a tough day for all of us. I know my father is trying to be strong for him. I know it upsets a father whenever he sees his son in a condition that there's nothing to do but to undergo such process.

The mother's heart suffers seeing her son so vulnerable and exhausted, lying on a bed with tubes and all. I saw her crying. I know her whole system is still in grip. The feeling was inexplicable. It feels like when I'm about to start explaining it, tears will fall involuntarily.

This is not a dream though I hope it is.

This is so real and I wish to end it now.  

He can get through this, I know. Everything will be alright. 

It is not a serious problem compared to others' problem but it is tough and painful for him.