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I posted this because there's something about you. <3 That's the high light of the this story. :) I wish I've already noticed how strong your impact is, to me. You've made me cry! That's why I love you :P You made me cry but you cannot hurt my heart. :) 

 I wish I just can sleep all day long and never in

my dreams he'll appear. I wish I can do these

things that I'm suppose to do without him running

through my mind. I have a quiz in Data Struc tom,

we must finish the interview in Theology, we must

make the program run for our finals in OPSYS.

What more? Our program too, in Data Struc! I

need to study for finals! It's our hell week in

Busko! But it was also like hell in my heart and

mind! Worse than any other.

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 I just can't understand how did he do that with

me? Hypnotized me? C'mon.. I'm out of my mind

the whole day! I'm out of this world.

I don't have enough sleep too. My classmates,

pissed me off a while a ago. No where for me to

run. I went outside the room and plan to cry at the

CR for a while.. Luckily, I prevented those tears

from falling. I  went outside, and went up to Sir

Alec's office but he's not there. I've got no idea!

No plan C! And my feet brought me in front of the

small chapel. I went inside, stay there for about 30

minutes. I'm down on bended knees for Him to

calm down my mood. I almost cried in front of that

altar but again, I thought of somethin else instead

of him, and them.. I thought of God. I talked to

Him loud enough just to carry my grief. Haiii..

After a while, I was relieved. I felt more at peace.

No tears. Then, I went up. Look for my grades in

CMSYS and... gosh I've got 1.5 again in lecture

and 2 in laboratory. Satisfactory lang. ;p I went

back to our room.. They have returned my

assignment after they copied my work. Thank you

for being concern (in my dreams!). 

 I'm sitting right there. No actions I'm doing aside

from thinking. Well, atleast I took a rest. And then,

Ading and I had this conversation. Errmm.. Alright.

I cried. Durog! No one saw that, only me and him..

Thank God, even they're around, I mean our

classmates, they didn't see it. But that was just

few tears.. Right now are the true ones.. 

 Hopefully, I can start reviewing for the quiz, or

take a sleep instead of thinking. Gudluck Tel!

You're such a shame.. Shame on Tel! I thought

you're strong enough? Show me, lady! Argh! blah

blah blah.. 

10-20-08