Now I'm worried :|

I love you, nay at tatay <3

"Wala naman nakapag-present eh. Baka mapagbigyan pa kami. Kung hindi, sama-samang ulit na lang." (Nagpatawa pa ko sa isip ko.)

I don't think about what subjects I am going to fail this time. I don't think either if what will happen if I'll fail one.

I don't know if this is some kind of a defense mechanism or what? Because the more I think about grades, the more I become frustrated. Or maybe, this is some kind of a joke to me, thinking that I've passed all my subjects for my whole life and maybe I can pass this one too.

But seriously, I'm beginning to think of the consequences of what will happen if we're gonna fail this one. 

There are two possibilities, either INC. or 5 (not this one,please).

And two outcomes. Because I haven't experienced yet to fail any subject, I'm not sure if:

One, we'll be given a chance to complete our itprj413 during the sem break. Or two, we're going to be dumped under our nose and repeat the subject. Not on the next semester, but the next school year. And if we're going to take that next school year, the itprj423 can only be taken the second semester of the next school year.

Can you imagine? Ohmygah! I forgot. Prerequisites. :|

Well for me, I can easily accept it. That's part of our lives. That's part of learning. That's part of growing up. But not today...

Staring through their eyes, I got worried. What if, they can't wait for my graduation if it wasn't on April then? What if, they're just really waiting for this year to end? What if, they died before my grad? I hate thinking about those people who believes in me! I hate thinking that I will be a big disappointment for them. I’m the eldest child, the eldest granddaughter. I should be a role model. But how? In this scenario. How will I be?

.tel.101010.